“If my mind can conceive it, if I my heart can believe it, I know I can achieve it.” –Jesse Jackson I come from a family of six and being part of a big family was good at times but not always. My parents always expected me and my rest of siblings to graduate from high school then get into a cal state or even a UC.I wanted to accomplish that and make my parents proud. All of that determination went down when I entered high school; everything was so different from middle school. I did well all through ninth grade but when I started 10th grade that is when my grades started to drop. I wasn’t finishing my assignments in class or doing my homework because I had trouble understanding the work that was taught in class I had relinquished on myself I didn’t do anything about it and it continued all through 11th grade. I hid my poor grades from my parents because I didn’t want to disappoint them and I didn't want to bother them to worry with my school stuff . I finally, realized at the end of 11th grade that I had to do something about it so I went to adult school to retake the classes that I had failed and I needed to graduate. I began my senior year and made sure that I did my work and not put it aside like I did before and made sure to ask for help when I needed it. Then came the time when everybody started applying for colleges. That is when it hit me the most all my mistakes weren’t irrevocable. My grades in high school had affected me to getting into a good college. I was stressed out because I was expected to attend a 4 year college like my sisters but I knew inside that wasn’t possible because of my bad choices. I felt like I was a disappointment to my parents. I knew that I had to tell them the truth that I wasn’t going to attend a 4 year college like my sisters. I told them that I was going to attend a community college once I graduadted from highschool I imagined the worst from them but they were okay with it and understood they told me that not matter what they are proud of me and they will never be a disappointment.I am now putting as much effort into my education to prove to my parents that I can accomplish my goals and not let them down and myself .
Well your in the right path you are here in college trying your best and that what matter you got this Carmen!
ReplyDeleteI went through the same thing as you, my parents expecting so much and not being able to achieve it. But at least we are in school and making the best out of it. Keep up the good work and you'll be in a Cal State or UC before you know it.
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