"My Struggle in life"

"We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in your past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here Now with the power to shape your day and your future"-Steve Maraboli. Growing up was very tough and crazy for me, I went through a lot in my life. When I was young I didn't get much attention from my parents, we weren't very social able. I never had the change to talk to them about anything in mind or have time for me because both of them would work. I taught myself everything. As I got older, my state of mind and mentality was very different from my parents. When I entered high school I was seventeen
 years old at the time, my struggles began to get even worst. School was very difficult for me. I did not understand none of my class. I would never listen to my teachers. I began to hang out with the wrong crowd. I basically got to the point where I hated school and did not care anymore. My mistake was I started to go out and party a lot. I would stay in the streets mostly everyday. I wouldn't even go back home for day or two. I begin to drink alcohol. That was my main focus; I would drink everyday. I would miss school and rather hangout and drink. I got to the point where I couldn't control my use. I resulted into anger; I talked bad language to my parents. I even left my house because I could take it anymore. Everyone tried to help me out, but I did not want any of it. I was so close minded; I only thought of myself and not what others thought and felt for me. I admit I had a drinking problem; I was an alcoholic. One day I went to a gathering with some friends late at night. As always having a good time and drinking alcohol. That night all I remember was I drank too much alcohol. I literally got drunk with no common sense. I blacked out. I fainted to the ground. Of course, no one saw because everyone was doing there own thing. My friend said since I was too crazy, she thought I went to sleep for a bit. She didn't think worse. A few hours later she noticed I wasn't waking up; she got worried. All she could do was call the ambulance. After doctors told me, I was intoxicated, I drank too much Alcohol. They said I am a very lucky girl to be alive right now because if your friend wouldn't have called and wait approximately an hour; I would have dying. I made my family and friend go through a lot. Because of my scary incident in a day I finally realized a lot. I need it to stop my drinking habits and get some real help, focus on my education to better myself, and know that life is not just an option, its a privilege. I had to make things right for myself and family. I regret everything I did in my past. But, now I am standing strong, working hard at my education, and I am currently one year sober. I expect the best for my future. I know I can't go back and start a new beginning, but I can start today or any day and make a new ending.